Tuesday, November 30, 2010

1 year follow up schedule

I scheduled my 1 year post thyroid cancer treatment follow up, here's my schedule so you can keep it in prayer.

January 10th - start low iodine diet (ugh)
January 24th- pregnancy test (standard procedure)
and 1st Thyrogen injection( so I can sty on my meds)
January 25th- 2nd Thyrogen injection
January 26th- 10am Radiation dose
Jaurary 28th- bloodwork, then 8am whole body scan ( end diet and have a big lunch :))

February- hopefully schedule IVF for this month....

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Setbacks and Depression

I write in order to ask for prayer. I apologize that I haven't been posting new items very often, but I struggle with not wanting to always post bad news. I write in attempts to share my burden with you who have been such good friends and prayer warriors for me.
First, it turns out that Obamacare is not the break we were hoping for. It states that it does away with lifetime maximums on health care starting January 2011, so we thought perfect, that's when we can start trying again anyway this will do away with the $15k maximum we had for treatment....WRONG, it doesn't work that way as fertility treatment is considered special care and is in a different category.

Second, we thought the home buyers program was 15 years then we can sell our condo for full value..... well, due to some very fine print and vague paperwork we found that although David signed up for this change ( the original was 50 years) we may now need a lawyer to straighten it out since our future intent was to buy a house after 15 years which is a little over a year away....time flies doesn't it?

Third, I am going through the year post cancer treatment process and I am still having health issues like high blood pressure , tiredness and weight gain. They recently put me on Vitamin D which has helped but not a lot. I am extremely thankful though that by January after my body scan I hope to get the chance to say that I am cancer FREE :)......

Fourth and most on my mind..... we go back to the fertility clinic December 2nd to start the process of trying for a child again and to be brutally honest this process has not gotten any easier and the pain any less as time passes, the yearn grows stronger. I am going to be 35 next month and I feel like I have let God, my husband, my family and the world down that it's been 9 YEARS on this quest, where I struggle with feeling like I am not a good wife or woman and my faith just not strong enough. Yes, I know there's always adoption and I promise that's our next step...but God has closed this door please help support us in this journey. Anyway, since we'll have to pay mostly out of pocket since we exhausted the $15K max we pray God provides the funding we had hoped to get through selling our house and/or refinancing so we need that to get resolved and most selfishly I need to lose weight to do IVF, as they won't go through with the procedure unless you have a certain BMI and as of today that means this crazy weight I gained after my cancer treatment needs to come off...and well, the scale has been helping me... as of this morning I need to lose 15 pounds by the time we do IVF..... I humbling and selfishly ask for your prayers and support during this time..as I battle wanting to be depressed about the whole situation.
Thanks for listening. I am so blessed by you.
~Wendy