What is wrong with me?

I have been traveling and working like a crazy person trying to get a certain amount of work done before I am out of the office for recovering from surgery. I do a lot of work on my own and didn't want to leave a lot of work in progress. But I have so much going on in my head that I'm forgetting things, doing silly stuff, etc...and I keep yelling at myself, 'what is wrong with me?' I know what is wrong- I'm stressed out and still pretty scared of the after surgery adventure of regulating my meds. I hate feeling like my head isn't screwed on straight(not that it ever really is anyway).Sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together and am thankful that the surgery isn't that far away so I can stop dwelling on it. I do have a praise that my latest ultrasound was unremarkable so there wasn't any obvious areas where it showed that the cancer has spread but they won't know for sure until they open me up.
Anyway, thought I'd blog a little as my own quick typed version of a scream-at-the-top-of-my-lungs to try and purge some of this pent up anxiety. Thank you for how much you all care about me, I love you so much(cheesy I know)

Surgery moved up to Dec. 2nd

My doctor had a scheduling conflict with her other work at the VA hospital, so I'm happy to switch so that a veteran can help when they need it. :)
On another note if you could say a prayer for my folks and sister they are going through a rough patch at the moment. Pray that this brings them all back into the fold of leading active lives for Christ.

Surgery Date December 9th

I have Praise to share. I was able to work the schedule out with my surgeon and the date is set of December 9th@7:30am at Georgetown University Hospital. That should give me just enough time to wrap up some loose ends at work so that my absence will not be a heavy burden on them. So the countdown begins......

Met w/ Surgeon

We met the surgeon today. She was very nice and extremely thorough. Next step is an ultrasound next week and scheduling the surgery itself. Her schedule is very limited so please pray that we can work something out in the time frame we are looking at which is early December. She said that I might be out of work for a week which is longer then expected but if that what it takes then who am I to complain about having to stay home right? I'm feeling very overwhelmed with work and travel at the moment along with all of this so please pray for peace of mind and ability to concentrate on the tasks at hand. Also my cousin had a baby last night so Praise God for welcoming their daughter into the world safe and sound.

Thyroid Cancer update

I'll slowly have to fill in the back story to those of you who are coming to this late, but I wanted to send a quick update. D and I met with 2 different endocrinologists and found that we prefered the second who works at the same hospital where I'll be having the thyroidectomy done. We are very blessed to have friends who worked there and they refered us to some of the best doctors. What a huge blessing that is to not have to worry about whether you are getting a good level of care or not. So I meet with the surgeon on Wednesday and then have an ultrasound scheduled for November 10th to give the surgeon a better idea if they are any other lumps that they need to look at/remove during surgery. I don't have a surgery date yet but will post it when I do.