Clear Scan

I am pretty sure I told most of you already, but I am happy to report that the body scan and bloodwork reflected that I am CANCER FREE!!!!! Praise God for this tremendous blessing. :) I could not have made it through without God, my wonderful supporting husband, my family and all my friends who spoiled me rotten and showered me with love and prayers.

Low Iodine Diet

So just a quick update, started the low iodine diet Monday and so far so good. D has been absolutely wonderful cooking a lot for me and making smoothies too. He downloaded an LID cookbook he found with what seem to be pretty yummy recipes. I am so thankful for him. I have scheduled all my appts so one less thing to worry about. Now I want to look towards the fertility stuff and excute a plan for moving forward with our family goals. Praying for God's wisdom.

cost

Talked to Shady Grove today regarding our health insurance coverage and found out that since we have almost completely exhausted our infertility coverage it will cost us $11,000 minimum to try again. Please pray that the Lord gives us great wisdom with our finances.

1 year follow up schedule

I scheduled my 1 year post thyroid cancer treatment follow up, here's my schedule so you can keep it in prayer.

January 10th - start low iodine diet (ugh)
January 24th- pregnancy test (standard procedure)
and 1st Thyrogen injection( so I can sty on my meds)
January 25th- 2nd Thyrogen injection
January 26th- 10am Radiation dose
Jaurary 28th- bloodwork, then 8am whole body scan ( end diet and have a big lunch :))

February- hopefully schedule IVF for this month....

Setbacks and Depression

I write in order to ask for prayer. I apologize that I haven't been posting new items very often, but I struggle with not wanting to always post bad news. I write in attempts to share my burden with you who have been such good friends and prayer warriors for me.
First, it turns out that Obamacare is not the break we were hoping for. It states that it does away with lifetime maximums on health care starting January 2011, so we thought perfect, that's when we can start trying again anyway this will do away with the $15k maximum we had for treatment....WRONG, it doesn't work that way as fertility treatment is considered special care and is in a different category.

Second, we thought the home buyers program was 15 years then we can sell our condo for full value..... well, due to some very fine print and vague paperwork we found that although David signed up for this change ( the original was 50 years) we may now need a lawyer to straighten it out since our future intent was to buy a house after 15 years which is a little over a year away....time flies doesn't it?

Third, I am going through the year post cancer treatment process and I am still having health issues like high blood pressure , tiredness and weight gain. They recently put me on Vitamin D which has helped but not a lot. I am extremely thankful though that by January after my body scan I hope to get the chance to say that I am cancer FREE :)......

Fourth and most on my mind..... we go back to the fertility clinic December 2nd to start the process of trying for a child again and to be brutally honest this process has not gotten any easier and the pain any less as time passes, the yearn grows stronger. I am going to be 35 next month and I feel like I have let God, my husband, my family and the world down that it's been 9 YEARS on this quest, where I struggle with feeling like I am not a good wife or woman and my faith just not strong enough. Yes, I know there's always adoption and I promise that's our next step...but God has closed this door please help support us in this journey. Anyway, since we'll have to pay mostly out of pocket since we exhausted the $15K max we pray God provides the funding we had hoped to get through selling our house and/or refinancing so we need that to get resolved and most selfishly I need to lose weight to do IVF, as they won't go through with the procedure unless you have a certain BMI and as of today that means this crazy weight I gained after my cancer treatment needs to come off...and well, the scale has been helping me... as of this morning I need to lose 15 pounds by the time we do IVF..... I humbling and selfishly ask for your prayers and support during this time..as I battle wanting to be depressed about the whole situation.
Thanks for listening. I am so blessed by you.
~Wendy

God's timing....

I know I haven't blogged in a while but this I just had to share with you. Currently I have health insurance through D's job and we had already exceeded the lifetime maximum of $15k for fertility treatments. Found out that as of January 1, 2011 that the health insurance lifetime maximums have been eliminated, meaning that we can try again for a family without having to pay 100% out of pocket. I am quite literally crying with tears of joy..... I praise God for this tremendous blessing. The timing couldn't be more perfect as it will be a year since my cancer treatment which I had to wait due to the increased risk of miscarriage after the radioactive iodine treatment. Praise God from whom ALL blessings flow!

Where has the time gone?

It's hard to believe that it's been 9 years since I stood before God, my family and friends and became Mrs. Wendy C. I had heard that if you can get through the first 5 years, you can get through anything. Well, I'd beg to differ with that one as this last year has been the hardest of my life. Thankfully what had gotten me through this past year in addition to my faith has been my strong marriage, through it all I have been blessed with a husband who has been there for me when I desperately needed him. I struggle with the thought that I haven't been there for him as much as he has been there for me,I struggle with the ways he needs to be comforted as I selfishly think of only myself sometimes. We are so blessed to also have a Heavenly Father that promises to always be there for us, and we both needed HIM so much more through the loss of 3 pregnancies and a battle with cancer. Scripture tells us to praise Him in the storms, and we certainly have tried to do that although admittedly our sinful nature is in a constant fight with the wanting to ask 'why me' and 'this isn't fair'....
I share this all to say how much I love D and am trilled that he picked me to be his wife, I still get butterflies sometimes when we hold hands.

Tomorrow marks a year since we lost our son a day shy of being 16 weeks along. It also would have been the due date of our 3rd pregnancy had it not been ectopic..so emotions will be running high. I want to get past the hurt and celebrate the fact that lil'Dennis has been at the Lord's feet all this time and for eternity but I still mourn the loss and think of it everyday.